It’s kind of ironic how I posted a quote about me not forgetting what God has done for me. So, by the time August 11th comes around I forgot. I forgot about how surely I would have died had I not made the decision to live.
As most of you may know one of the most well-known among comedians, Robin Williams, had departed from this world last Monday on August 11th.
The news was shocking, of course, but when I found out he committed suicide I was heartbroken. A month or two ago, I found out that the main character from The Famous Jet Jackson, Lee Thompson Young, had partaken in the same experience. When I found out about his death, my feelings were mutual.
It’s heartbreaking because I had went through the back and forth
of contemplating suicide for a couple of years.I was in a state of mind that I couldn’t get out of. The devil had my mind in a box that caused me to think that no one cared about me. I hated my life. What caused me to hate my life was the verbal abuse from my peers. Have you heard the saying ‘sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me?’ That’s a lie. I used to believe that until the sticks and stones that my peers threw at me were sinking into my mind every time they would point and laugh at my cerebral palsy. With every word or laugh was a breaking of soul that I couldn’t detach from. There words and laughs had already sunk in so deep in my mind that I couldn’t escape my wounds.
The wounds that I had caused me to put up a wall. This wall that I had put up caused me to become anti-social. I wouldn’t talk to others unless they talked to me. I didn’t know how to get out of my thoughts. I wasn’t even thinking of help. The help I had my mind fixed on was to take myself out of my problems was to take myself off of this Earth by committing suicide. I wouldn’t have gotten out of that state if it wasn’t for God.
If you just so happen to read this, know that your decision to read was not a mistake…you were meant to. Maybe you’re wanting to commit suicide, or maybe you just want some advice on how to stop someone from ending there life. I know a solution that helped me, and that solution can help you too JESUS.
The day I gave my life to God I knew I had made the right decision. I knew that I was loved and knew that he was always there before I ever entered this world. I wish I would had known that Jesus could do more than just die on a cross, but I didn’t. On August 11th of 2011 I actually found out that he could do more than just save, he could deliver.
August 11th was the day I forgot. I shocked at the fact that I did forget. This day is very important to me. This day is a very important part of my testimony because God can do more when you feel like you’re less.
All wrongdoing is sin, and there is sin that does not lead to death (1 john 5:17)-Me wanting to kill myself was me playing a apart in sin.
Here’s a solution to get rid of sin…
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16)-He had already took my suicide upon himself when he bled on the cross
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 6:23)-Because he had took my suicide he had to die
When he died he went to hell
The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. 6 He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay (Matthew 28:5-6)-For two days his body was in a tomb, but on the 3rd day…he rose 😀
All of this makes up The Gospel!
If you believe the information I just passed on to you please say this prayer:
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9 not by works, so that no one can boast (Ephesians 2:8-9)
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